Aoshi Leaves the (Space)Ship

Date March 28, 2021

Hello and goodbye everybody,

All things must come to an end and so does my time as ETF2L admin.

After being administrator for the League for the last six years, a quarter of my life, overseeing fourteen highlander seasons, eighteen sixes seasons and countless cups (including various LANs), I have had the opportunity to learn so much (and make so many mistakes while doing so).

So, firstly, I wish to thank all of you for this amazing opportunity that has truly been a one of a kind.

I will be leaving you all in the care of Belgium Sodium, who will be my successor as Head Admin. I have full confidence in him and the rest of the staff and wish them all the best.

With that out of the way please read the following as my one selfish request of the community.

Although I wished to be leaving with smiles and waves, instead I’m leaving saddened. I’m not leaving due to my passion for TF2 and the community having died out. Nor is it due to me having achieved a specific goal or lack of time. I’m leaving disappointed within the community due to its ever growing immature behavior as well as my own inability to steer it in the right direction. I feel like spending the amount of time that I do is not worth it, as it only brings me stress and sadness.

I joined staff back in 2015 with the idea of contributing to a community that I loved with all my heart. I had found a passion that I truly cared about. Over the years, I have only felt myself get pushed out of the community that I cared for while being berated for trying my hardest. Spending countless hours making tournaments, resolving conflicts, helping new players and much more, only to be called incompetent and lazy.

This community has taken the stance that consistently insulting its contributors is acceptable behaviour, even going so far as making personal attacks until they effectively bully out the very people that keep this community alive.

I have seen a lot of people with passion and love get pushed away by this community just for trying to contribute.

I hope that this self destructive behavior within this community can one day change for the better. I hope that the community will reflect on this, and that in the future, players will treat both each other and community contributors with greater kindness and respect

I don’t want this post to just be negative. So, I want to give a shoutout to every admin I had the pleasure to work with. You are part of what made this experience as amazing as it has been. Even those who didn’t make it past their trial period as you showed me the love that some of you have towards this community.

Germany nTraum, Netherlands Buffalo Bill, Germany JohnnyBambo, Sweden ondkaja, Poland CHERRY, UnitedKingdom Gubbins, Finland DyaWyb, Germany ducky, UnitedKingdom Permzilla, UnitedKingdom bubble bobbler, UnitedKingdom Lovellie, Germany Schalla, Germany Yggdrasil, Portugal stuntz, Luxembourg Netsky, Sweden Toodles, European Steve!, England deathyy, Germany Solid, England Morphine, European 30.06, Netherlands kKaltUu, England WML, International DT.miggy, Scotland Crasp, Germany Ignis, UnitedKingdom Exze, European accless, England Hildreth, Sweden Cronk, England Jon, UnitedKingdom prof, International Gentleman Jon, Germany Zitrooone, UnitedKingdom hrbls, Switzerland MIGHTY BURGER ツ, Sweden Collaide, England z0diack, France Olgha, England Phlogic, Spain Capu, UnitedKingdom Dr Happiness, England proky, UnitedKingdom jun0, Ireland AlesKee, England snowdream, Germany dave, Norway Lazybear, England NYK, Italy fantastictobey, UnitedKingdom Acecle, UnitedKingdom joe the brave, Italy Basil's Creed, Luxembourg Mofu, UnitedKingdom soda, Netherlands Wiethoofd, Belgium Sodium, France Kaylus, Poland thaZu, Germany Lowenzahn, Finland nash, Germany Jack, Germany juni, International seeds, Germany callFEELD, Germany quintosh, Italy Erupo89, International Faust, Portugal Biohazard, Netherlands JENNY, Germany Amaterasu, Poland supra and Finland Lyrete

A few I want to give a special mention for various reasons from teaching me many things to being amazing to work with. Thank you.

Germany ash, Germany Sonny Black, UnitedKingdom MoistPenguin, Slovenia Jan, Germany DCS, Lithuania emb, Germany Menty and Finland Bloodis

Next to this I also want to give a special thanks to some other community contributors that I had the pleasure to work with or to enjoy their work and passion from afar.
Australia obla, Sweden Heny, England Vicious Horizon, International 200, Australia dev.zeri, International reno, Canada tri_, Catfish, UnitedStates sigafoo, Sidular, Daffodil, Makkabeus, International Exa_, Netherlands Wiethoofd, Netherlands Arie, Denmark Beater, Germany DuMmTm, England gemm, England TurboTabs, UnitedStates misterslin, UnitedKingdom Sideshow, UnitedStates phi, France TwiiKuu, Sweden Collaide, Netherlands LuckyLuke, Mia, dalegaard, Wales Arch and UnitedKingdom Agro

I want to thank all of you. Although I probably should have done so in a more personal PM or similar. I do appreciate all the effort you and many others have put into this community to make it the amazing thing that it is.

One final shoutout to the amazing teams and people I got to meet. In particular European Good Enough, Azerbaijan Tracksuit Boys and Seychelles The Zoo.

So again, thank you all. The amount of amazing things that this community has been able to accomplish without external support is truly one of a kind.

I hope that one day I’ll be able to look back at my time within the competitive community in a positive way.



  1. SchmitShot: TBCB - RATS said:

    Aoshi leave the ship

    no medals s35 s36 s37 s38
    “as it only brings me stress and sadness.”

  2. coyo: GlueEater said:

    who could have seen it coming that the first comment is a gremlin crying about medals

  3. HartzFartz: (ETF2L Donator) - gsg - 0FO said:

    You are and will always be my favorite Anime character.

  4. Maxi: SCOOPER said:

    who could have seen it coming that the first comment is a gremlin crying about medals

    L for Lucas

  5. Polarium: .ƒlow said:


  6. rubicus: FLOPPA - DOMINOS said:


  7. Hoxtilicious said:

    honestly i’m not the least surprised.
    i’m sorry you had to go through that Aoshi, and gl in your future endeavors.

  8. Pete_: PrettyGay said:

    Signed in for the first time in like 2 years to post this. Thank you for your incredible amount of voluntary dedication to this league.
    Much love, brother. See you soon

  9. Sherlock said:

    much love to you <3

  10. ReseF: WARSAW said:

    I will miss you Aoshi and think of you in a semi sexual way.

  11. The Ambassador!: РВ said:

    Can’t wait to see what Catman has to say…

  12. rae: EMPiRE said:


  13. calle cool: gains said:


  14. Adje: :) said:

    playing with you and the other Belgian gamers that one season for HLNC in 2017 was some of the most fun I’ve had in this game

    if it weren’t for people like you who actually tried to take initiative to contribute to this community, this game/league would have probably died ages ago

    thank you for the time you put in and good luck in your future endeavours :)

  15. AlesKee: CHIMPU18 said:


  16. tiram: 5toes - BMI said:

    free sj

  17. supra: (League Admin) - Bzz - ᵍaₑtᵃ said:


  18. Rahmed: omer :D - ᵍaₑtᵃ said:

    Funny story I had with Aoshi, and basically my only interaction with him:

    At i65, I was wandering around the LAN and one of the french players needed help.
    Their PC had problems booting up, so I decided to go get Aoshi from his desk duties over to this player’s pc – turned out, he has a USB stick connected. Once the chad Aoshi removed it, the PC worked fine

    What a legend

  19. kermit: {SMPMGG} - sniper said:


  20. gobiro said:

  21. Russian Guyovich: (Surging Meat Cable) - [T-A!]LoS said:

    Thank you for your service, and all the very best for the future

  22. Arie: ( - FB - [FB] said:

    Thank you Aoshi <3

  23. Amaterasu: (Anti Cheat Staff) - CD said:


  24. ponche: pvz said:


  25. Noot: NCF - SeG said:

    hi aoshi

  26. Sykens: MM - RY said:

    goodbye Aoshi, best of luck in future, and thanks for being our admin <3

  27. DCS: (Legend) - CD said:

    Enjoy your well deserved retirement, buddy. Welcome to the admin graveyard!

    Now it is Sodium’s turn to ruin everything. Good luck!

  28. Sprasty: SAUNA - Ѧ said:

    Sad to see you go but understandable

  29. Villdjack: (twisted) - mario+2 - SDCK! said:

    Aoshi did in fact not destroy everything, thanks for everything #broshiarmy :)

  30. Lowenzahn: (League Admin) - VGANG - DORF said:


  31. TwiiKuu: doggo said:

    Thank you Aoshi

  32. enrk: DumasFC said:

    Thanks Aoshi!

  33. Admiral: SCOOPER - MUUMIT said:

    It’s difficult to hear the silent appreciation of the majority and weigh it against the loud and constant whining of a comparative few. The work of all the admins in organising and ensuring the longevity of this league on a voluntary basis is a wonderful thing and certainly deserves more praise.
    Without exaggeration I can say I have made some great friends and some great memories from my participation in this league, and none of it would exist in the first place without the work of many volunteers.
    So, thank you Aoshi for supporting TF2 all this time, and thanks to everyone who continues to give their time and energy so we can enjoy this league.

  34. TimTum: (ETF2L Donator) - LR said:

    Thanks for all the time you’ve put into not only ETF2L but also several lans

  35. Twisted: mario+2 - m a s o n said:

    Hero gamer works an extra job for free, fueled by passion alone.
    I hope you know I have nothing but respect for how much you’ve done for this community.
    Thanks for everything you did for this league.

  36. Heny: chumtoad. - regretful said:

    Thank you for everything you’ve done.

  37. Liko: ︻芫═一☺ - RATS said:

    bring back the fairplay award

  38. Dr Happiness: SHAG said:

    Thank you for all that you have done and helping me get into organising for TF2. Huge respect to you.

  39. Igov Драгови: TANK said:

    i don’t rlly know this guy but it’s so true , so much hate in a video game is not healthy :(

  40. monty: CC said:


  41. Citrus said:

    sodium will destroy everything (trust me)

  42. ire said:

    o7, best of luck, and thank you for your time

  43. DickSauce: SPECAL.edo said:


  44. Phlogic: beans said:

    Thanks for everything you’ve done during your time Aoshi. Best wishes for whatever awaits you in the future. o7

  45. Haku: BauS said:

    Thanks for years of service and voluntary work my man o7

    Good luck to you in the future bananaoshi <3

  46. profix said:

    all the best aoshi

  47. Penguin in Poncho: H4B said:

    Thanks for all your hard work and see ya next time

  48. M_J_C said:

    It’s sad you are leaving but i really understand you on your point. Thank you for all your help you gave me and other players :) you deserve to be remembered as a great head admin :). Wish the best out there :)

  49. Dave_the_Irate: SENS said:

    Thanks Aoshi and best wishes for the future!

    Also good luck to Sodium. You’ll be great.

  50. TurboTabs: (Classy) said:

    Thank you aoshi for everything.

    p.s. lans don’t count right? :D

  51. Stace: Yackson - Pill said:

    you were good son real good maybe even the best

  52. Captain Coomer: said:

    1 of the few admins I had faith to actually get shit done :/ cya around bud best of luck

  53. sno: UbeR | - itsallgood said:

    Thanks Aoshi, het ga je goed.

  54. unu: ︻デ═一 said:

    <3 Thanks for everything

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  56. Wylen: ORACLE - BMI said:


  57. gemm: doggo said:

    Thank you Aoshi <3

  58. Bloodis: (Legend) - (๑╹ω╹๑ ) - Tissi said:

    I still remember asking you just around a week after you finished your trial back in 2015 and became a league admin if the league was taking in new trials even if ETF2L didn’t have a post open for it at the time, had I not done that I wouldn’t have been able to have you as the best workmate possible.

    That being said though, I fully do understand the amount of frustration that comes with the task to take care of a community like this. The work of an admin anywhere, everywhere, is something people simply don’t take for granted enough and expect all of the work to be done from somewhere else other than from the heart, and when you finally finish up on your work that’s the only time people will thank you for your time, not during it when it matters a lot more.

    I really hope for the best to your future, Aoshi. Thank you for everything.
    And I also wish the best to all current league admins, anti-cheat staff and especially Sodium.

  59. looseyleftie: $$$ - $$ said:

    i can’t blame anyone for the toxicity forcing them out – thanks for your stewardship despite it <3

  60. tavi: gains said:

    thanks for everything Aoshi <3

  61. firej said:

    sad to see the events turn out like this aoshi :(
    godspeed for what life has coming for you <3

  62. CanFo: (Legend) - [HA] - #T4F said:

    I can only echo what Admirable said. The vocal minority can really weigh you down and is difficult to ignore sometimes. After a while, you’ll fondly remember the positive experiences you made. Thanks for your contribution over the years.

  63. sia: GUCCI - 9F said:

    I think a great part of the community really enjoys etf2l and is grateful for it, it’s just not said, as very often, only the negative is spoken. Thanks :)

  64. marten: TBC said:

    Damn, sad news. I really enjoyed all the hard work you have put into tf2 and i appreciate all the times you have admin’d (ETF2L, LANs and others).

    Wish you all the best in your future endeavors and thank you for everything!

  65. Big Papa MattJ: gains - ᵍaₑtᵃ said:

    my man litteraly resurrected the etf2l website

    godspeed tupac waiting for you in admin Jannah

  66. Synrise: (ETF2L Donator) - GIEL - SPECAL.edo said:

    Thank you Aoshi for all the effort that you put into this community! Gl to Sodium and the rest of the team!

    Proud of my Belgian boys!

  67. 200: BBN said:

    Thank you Aoshi <3

  68. TheMackey5: FM said:

    Thanks for all your work mister admin man!

  69. Jedi(fla)master: L9 said:

    Where’s my banpost tho?

  70. AMPER said:

    Another ef2l admin dead inside. It will be with you all. Delete tf2 before tf2 delete u

  71. Fox: owo said:

    I will take your request to heart, Aoshi. Gaming communities are and should be places where we can laugh together and enjoy ourselves. There will always be some degree of negativity, but we have to take care not to take it out on each other, or let it overshadow the fun of playing together and benefits of having a shared community.

    Thank you for your hard work through the years. I have gained a lot playing in this league, and am thankful for you being one of the people who have given me this experience. Best of luck in your future endeavours!

  72. [☁]Emiel: 404 - beans said:

    When u were a trial admin u complained about the back-end, when u were an admin u complained about and worked on that back-end, when u were head admin u complained about and revived the backend. RIP ETf2l back-end. Was fun playing with ya.

  73. spac mencer: Sadge - KANKERBOYS said:

    its all the new mongs in etf2l discord shame on you all

  74. sneaky the cat: (ETF2L Donator) - Yackson - V3V2 said:

    Thanks a lot aoshi! I can’t remember a time when you weren’t head admin :( sad days that you had to quit because people aren’t mature enough to understand how much time and dedication it takes for you.

  75. sintyre: Ѧ - Ѧ said:

    Full heartedly understand your point.
    I fucking appreciate you dude. Really sad to see you go.
    Please fare well, I wish you the best.
    THANK YOU for all the years you have put in to make this league better.

  76. Kritler: K? said:

    First you guys put this league in position like this and now you bail…

  77. Caps-lock_68: K? said:

    where ma medals att???nieafsihjfsifs??

  78. Basil's Creed: Sampler HL said:

    Thanks for everything you’ve done for the community and for the work you’ve put in it. From the side of a retired staff member I can tell you’ve been working very hard on your position. Farewell!

  79. Netsky: [HA] said:

    huh – welcome to the admin graveyard ;)

    I fully understand your reasoning, when I left I had a similar feeling but probably different circumstances. At some point it was just time to face it and call it quits. Nevertheless thank you for all the time and effort :)

    You are still my favourite french admin ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

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